I really screwed up my life. Everything seems so hopeless and I don't see how anything will ever get any better. I messed up everything. I cannot see a way out of this. Its like as if my life is torture. I wished i had a gun and just end my misery now.

I have so many regrets and everyday i go through in my head how i could have done differently but now its too late to change anything. I see people having a time of their lives and here i am with nothing. I don't see a way out and either I kill myself or a miracle happens which i don't see happening. I am so scared about my life.

But, i'm standing on my feet