I really screwed up my life. Everything seems so hopeless and I don't see how anything will ever get any better. I messed up everything. I cannot see a way out of this. Its like as if my life is torture. I wished i had a gun and just end my misery now.

I have so many regrets and everyday i go through in my head how i could have done differently but now its too late to change anything. I see people having a time of their lives and here i am with nothing. I don't see a way out and either I kill myself or a miracle happens which i don't see happening. I am so scared about my life.

But, i'm standing on my feet

"no matter how ugly the world gets or how stupid it shows me it is,

i always have faith"

To me you're just a cancer

What the fuck did I do wrong to deserve this fucking shit.

Motherfucker

Some things can't be explained like you'd like 'em to be

And I find it's easier to curse than pray

you see, i'm sick of being sad.

it sucks. really.

SIAL.SIAL.SIAL.SIAL